Beyond the Walls

When you’re inside walls, you feel safe. You get used to the poor lighting. Your eyes adjust. You feel protected by them. Like the smell inside. Feels like home. Safe. Protected from the bad outer world. Phoney feeling of safety. You’re contented. You just accept fate and get used to the surrounding. You gradually start feeling happy till you see the outside. Till you get a peek. Till you see what these walls are denying you. Till you see what they have taken away from you. Till you see how they’ve curbed your instincts. Tamed you. Retained you. Restrained you. Refrained you. Till you realize that a beautiful world awaits you. Right outside these walls. Just beyond these walls. And all it requires is a small effort. A small jump. Or a giant leap. But beyond these walls lies the Garden of Eden. Life. Lovely. Lively. Life. What you lacked. What these walls stopped you from attaining. The world awaits to welcome you with warm hands and a bear hug. You start building these hopes. Building these dreams. About what lay beyond these walls. About a fantastic life that lie waiting for the star thats you. Then you make these efforts, plan to break out. Plan your work. Work your plan. Execute it. n get out. Only to realize the harsh truth. There’re no warm hugs or bare hands. No welcoming ceremony. You came like the rest. You’re normal. Thats wat hurts the most. That you’re not special. That all this disappointment and this excruciating pain you feel is considered normal. That everyone goes through it. Thats the difficult part. Cuz beyond those walls you broke out are even more walls. Walls that are even more difficult to get out of. Invisble Walls. Walls that are bigger and stronger. Beyond those walls are more walls. The walls overpower you. Till you simply give up trying to break out of these bloody walls.

ECE Vs CSE

The moment I told her I wanted CSE she gave me this weird look. Like I said somethin horrible. like I cussed in a house of god. And then the advice started. See, CSE is like restricting urself. Your future is decided by fluctuations in the market. You take ECE n u get the best of both worlds. If computer industry looks good, u can go there and if its down u can JUMP to electronics. 

I still chose computers. Today, after four years, by the end of it, I realize that I made the right choice cuz I enjoyed the subjects. Its not like I aced my class. I just enjoyed the subjects. Liked them. Or to put it better, I Didn’t hate them. When kids come to me for advice asking if they should choose CSE or ECE i tell them the same thing I was told. It’s smarter to choose ECE unless u r really serious bout Computers. 

The reason I hate dem Electronics is they’re goddamn small. But the problem with CSE is, u cant learn eletronics seriously wen u pursue CS. Whereas anyone can enroll in a computer course while doin their major in another subject. Thats dual qualification. Frankl, anyone can learn C or C++ n get placed in a software company. But its not equally simple to be a Computer guy n work in an electronics core company.